Grief sucks. It’s overwhelming. It’s heavy. It’s a lot. My heart hurts. Loss is never easy. Whether it’s a physical loss of a person or an emotional tie with someone you care about who’s still alive. Either way it hurts just as bad. Grief feels like the heaviest rock being placed in the center of your chest while lying on your back. It’s hard to breathe and function. Hard to move, almost paralyzing. You can barely utter a word. Laying still hurts, trying to move hurts, even crying hurts. You’re immobile, inaudible, and stuck. The pressure of this rock is so heavy. It hurts to even call for help. So you lay there and suffer in silence. Cry in silence. Eventually you become numb and don’t even pay attention to the rock that’s still there. You learn a new way to breathe and function with the heaviness that still sits on your chest.
Grief never gets easier . It just becomes bearable. Things will just never be the same and all you have left are memories, some you wish to forget and others you wish to hold on to. Everybody handles grief differently. I’ve experienced both types of grief—one physically leaving and one emotional connection within the last two weeks. Both impacted me in a heavy way. Both experiences took a lot out of me. Both left a part of me feeling empty.
I found this quote in an article about grief which resonated with me. “While the grief you might feel for someone still alive can be painful and isolating, remember that this is a process that will take time and patience. Some days may be harder than others. We encourage you to give yourself time and space to feel whatever emotions come your way.” This morning every feeling imaginable came to me while I was getting ready for work. I couldn’t get a grip at all. I cried in the shower , on my way to work, even at work. I took a moment after the funeral today to give myself space and grace and speak kindness over me. I hugged myself and got myself together.
Listen grief isn’t easy. Grieve however you see fit. Don’t ever let anyone tell you how to grieve. It’s your own process. Eventually it’ll become bearable and you’ll learn how to cope moving forward. Some days will be better than others. Speak kind things to yourself, give yourself space and grace. You got this!
P.S. i love you 💜
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